만남... 그리고 이별...

난 또 이별이 있더라도 꼭 아름답게 사랑하고 더 아름답게 보내고 싶다...언제든지 마음에 준비를 해두면 가능한 일이겠지... 근데 이별의 마음을 준비하고 시작을하는 나는... 아직 다 고쳐지진 안았나보다...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GmQttohVrp0

웃어는 주자 행복했다면
두 뺨 가득히 눈물 흘러내려도
붙잡진 말자 사랑했다면
눈물 날만큼 사랑했음 된거야

주저 앉을 듯이 견뎌보고
금방이고 죽을 듯이 울다보면
또 하루가 간다

내 손으로 보낸다 내가 너를 보낸다
돌아오지 말아 행복하게 살아
살아가다 한 번쯤 누가 나를 묻더라도
아무렇지 않기를 그냥 웃어주기를

아쉬워 말자 진실했다면
우리 사랑은 오래 기억 될테니
그리워 말자 미워도 말자
못 견딜 만큼 사랑했음 된거야

주저 앉을 듯이 견뎌보고
금방이고 죽을 듯이 울다보면
또 하루가 간다

내 손으로 보낸다 내가 너를 보낸다
돌아오지 말아 행복하게 살아
살아가다 한 번쯤 누가 나를 묻더라도
아무렇지 않기를 그냥 웃어주기를

이 세상이 끝나고 저 하늘이 있다면
그때 다시 사랑하자 둘이
죽기 전에 한 번쯤 누가 우릴 묻더라면
추억이라 해두자 그 쯤이라 해두자

사랑 그 쓸쓸함에 대하여

beautifully written. on repeat tonight


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=El-YnYkXKF0&feature=related

도무지 알 수 없는 한가지 
사람을 사랑한다는 그일
참 쓸쓸한 일인 것 같아

Words to Live By

말은 성실하게 하라. 
행동은 공경스럽게 하라. 
음식은 절도있게 먹으라.
글씨는 반듯하게 써라.
용모는 단정하게 하라.
옷매무새는 깨끗하게 하라.
걸음거리는 편안하게 하라.
거처는 조용하게 하라.
일은 계획을 세워 시작하라.
말을 하였으면 반드시 실천하라.
늘 덕성을 견지하라.
허락은 신중이 하라.
착함을 보면 내 일처럼 기뻐하라.
나쁨을 보면 내 병처럼 미워하라.

To SEE the Big Picture

In trading, we have a "% winners" number. This is the percentage of profitable positions you have in your book/portfolio during a specified time frame. Now a 60% winners is VERY good given how some of us hold positions in over a thousand names. This usually leads to a very good year and a very happy trader. 


Now outside of trading, why do we focus so much on the other 40%, or even a much smaller number like 10%, 5%, or even 1% that's considered negative? 


I am and have always been my own harshest critic and always try to hold myself up to a very high standard. Some have called me a perfectionist and some have called me an elitist but to be honest, all it really means is that I stress myself out way too much trying to bring that 40% down to 0%. I've lived this way for a while now and probably won't change but what I really am trying to change is holding other people up to the same standard. Instead of focusing on the things people aren't doing, I want to focus more on the big picture. If someone makes you happy 9 times out of 10, is there a need to focus so much on that 1 time when you're not perfect yourself? When someone is a positive influence in your life 95% of the time, why dwell and stress about the other 5% when there's no guarantee that anyone in this world can make you happier?


Looking back at my past relationships, I was incredibly selfish and immature... I apologize to everyone and I'm grateful for all the lessons I've learned. I also apologize in advance if my selfishness and immaturity surfaces from time to time. I'm trying. 


한 장 잎사귀에 사로잡이면, 나무를 볼수 없고, 한 그루 나무에 사로잡이면 숲을 볼수 없다. 어디에도 마음을 두지않고, 돌아볼지도 말고, 전체를 보아라. 그 것이 아마도 '본다' 는 것이겠지. 

(For my friends who said my blog is racially discriminatory due to all the Korean, here's a rough translation. "If you focus on one leaf, you can't see the tree. If you focus on one tree, you can't see the forest. Don't focus anywhere, don't turn around, and see the whole. That is probably what it means to 'see'")

Pattern

I've been thinking... If there really is a pattern, then it probably and simply goes like this:

[beginning] -> [story] -> [end]

I'm guessing the [beginning] and [end] are pretty similar in all patterns.




So I intend to write the most beautiful [story]

and therefore, create the most unique and beautiful pattern to date.

Random Funny Chat with College Buddy

James: I thought you might like this video

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uU86MQcd_sQ&feature=feedf

me: ?

James: She's like an Incheon Representative (Gov't)

but also a popular writer

i randomly came across it

but thought her word of advice was pretty good.

me: why do you think I'll like it?

(watching it now)

James: cuz you're so driven to succeed

me: hmmmm

me: it makes sense, what she's saying

James: yea she said it so succinctly

so i liked it

me: yea... concept is simple and easy to understand

putting it to practice is the difficult part

James: it made me think of ur retarded thumb

after practicing bowling so much

(that nigga's crazy)

hahah

me: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
me: i'm glad you remember my bowling thumb shekki

James: haha yea i was like...damn that nigga's "ba bo gat chee mee chul suh"

정신차리자

The reason why some of my blog posts are in Korean is that I feel like it's a more emotional language, if that makes any sense... I think certain Korean words carry more emotion and depth but maybe I'm just saying this because I'm a FOB... But really, what's the English word for 정??? Anyways, this post isn't about languages, this is just a warning that the meat of the post is in Korean. With that said...

오늘은 진짜 이상한 날이다. 잊혀진줄 알았던 감정들이 돌아오고, 고친줄 알았던 철 없는 생각들도 잠시 돌아왔다... 그야마 잠시동안만 머물러서 다행이지...

오늘은 진짜 웃을라고 노력한 날... 그래도 지금은 행복한것갔다...

내일 부터 다시 정신차리자.