I lived such a straight life and I really believe in order to live such a life, you have to have a pretty straight and stubborn mindset. I used to believe people who get drunk and party every weekend were "bad" people and would be the "bad" type of friends to have in my life. Now I realize how ridiculously ignorant my thinking and non-logical-logic was.
Yes, I have gone out and partied with my friends more so in the past 2 years than I ever have before in my life. And the fact is, I have met so many people that are welcoming and friendly and I genuinely feel comfortable opening up to (which is very rare for me) the past 2 years than my previous 25-26 years combined. Now how can anyone that makes me feel so comfortable and happy be the "bad" type of friends to have? Because they smoke? Because they drink? Because they like to stay out late and go to bars or clubs on the weekends? Absolutely ridiculous and I feel so stupid I even felt that way. I used to always hear, "Tae is smart." Really? Because being able to read textbooks and remember the information well enough to pass tests doesn't seem that smart to me. I would prefer to hear, "Tae used to memorize things well, but he sure was stupid!" :)
The past couple of years have been so humbling for me. I'm glad life knocked me off of my high horse and I'm grateful to have met and befriended people who didn't judge me like I would have done had life not knocked me off. Difficult to believe that at the time, I was so angry and upset and confused and sad and felt like my life was ending... Now I realize it was just beginning.
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