Self Sabotage

Here I go again...

I seem to do this repeatedly - some good event happens and I initially have a pretty good feeling about it that makes me want the event to happen again. Then I sit and over-think it to death and end up spinning it negatively in my head over and over that I eventually end up convincing myself out of the so-called good event happening again. SELF-SABOTAGE. The most frustrating part about it is that I KNOW this is happening and I still do it. ALL my friends tell me that I need to stop doing this to myself and just go with the flow of things. It's easier said than done.

Frustrating. My personality, my brain, the fact that I think too damn much for my own good. One of the main reasons I keep myself so busy is because being idle makes me think too much about things...

I'm going to try my best to break out of this. I really will.