I was exchanging some texts with a friend on Friday night (because I don't really talk on the phone) about how we both had no plans for the night and here's kind of how it went:
Me: Oh I don't really do anything 90% of the time here in NorCal.
Him: Dude you should call me up whenever you want to hang out.
Me: Yea, I don't really initiate plans with people. If my friends call me and I'm free, I'll go out to hang out unless it sounds really uninteresting but I almost never initiate the plans.
Him: Why??? You need to initiate man.
The reason I don't initiate comes down to 2 main reasons.
1. I really just don't mind staying home, I always find something to keep myself busy and these days, I can use and want the study time.
2. The subject of this post - MY PERSONALITY.
Now I decided to blog about this because I sometimes hear it from my friends that I never call to hang out with them, especially when I'm in LA. I'm sure some of my friends think that I just don't want to hang out with them or I'm busy or I'm too popular and don't have time for them (my favorite). These, especially the last one, couldn't be more wrong. It's just my personality to not really initiate plans with people unless I'm deathly bored or have something specific in mind. I almost never have any weekend plans and it just comes down to who, if anyone, asks me to hang out first. So please don't be or act butthurt if I'm in town and don't call/initiate to see you. People usually know when I'm in town through my Facebook page. I know that may sound a little ridiculous but if you're a FB user and honestly never visit my FB page, then that probably also means that you don't really care whether I'm in town or not so I think it's fair.
My thoughts have a tendency to run wild so this whole post got me thinking... THIS is probably why I've almost always ended up dating girls who are the initiators or the "aggressors" as some would say. Combine my frustrating(?) personality with the fact that I'm clueless with girls naturally leads me to date girls who are more direct and assertive. Examples? I never even kissed my 1st girlfriend... and my 2nd girlfriend had to literally sit on me and kissed me and later told me she thought I would never kiss her first... HAHA anyways...
This post is kind of a half-hearted apology if I've made you feel like I don't want to hang out with you. Half-hearted because I don't want to make anyone feel that way but it's also my personality and makes me who I am...
Oh, but girls who are TOO aggressive, that's just a little scary/intimidating and makes me not want to hang out with you.
since my carousing on fb is so intermittent and unpredictable (and i'm guessing other people who love you and want to hang out with you can say the same), i suggest you start a feed we can all sign up to or just post yourself on googlemaps where we can find you 24/7... something along those lines, maybe. i bet you'd reach hundreds of followers in nooo time.
ReplyDeletespeaking of which, when are you back in LA? i know i'd like to see you and i bet cecilia is drooling just thinking about it right now (; let us know?? hope the hotel ghosts aren't keeping you up at night!
xoxoxoxooxxo,
christine
You give me waaaaaay too much credit, I'm quite the loner and anti-social. I would have about 7 followers. :)
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