Thoughts.

Not typical of my usual postings but more of a recap of what's been going on and quick thoughts that are running through my mind.

1. I have yet another exam tomorrow, series 56. Shouldn't be a problem but still, I feel like I take too many exams in life. Oh, and updating your blog the day before an exam always feels right.

2. Had lunch with my older sis today (really good friend who I call my older sis, I confide in her and tell her everything). We used to work together at my old company and she's the only person in my life, other than my mom, who tells it to me straight, even if it's negative. She told me today, "I don't understand why they chose you for that job. When you're working, you're an incredibly bitter bitch and mean." The funny thing is, she's the one who hired me at my old company haha. A couple other things she told me before that come to mind right now - "You go from being incredible hulk to incredible sulk", "You can be incredibly charming when you want to be but you choose to be a dick" and "As I watched you play X-Box, I asked myself 'how does he ever pull women?'". I love her.

3. The human mind is so so fickle. I should be appreciative and content that I'm having a really good month at work but instead, I'm still kicking myself over the day I cost myself $120k and think, "it could have been even more!" I hate this about myself.

4. Vegas in a couple of days. I was initially nonchalant about it but now I'm excited. I'm going to secretly use the trip as a celebration of my new job and passing my exam.

5. I live my life in a very structured, robotic way. My nickname is a robot... So let's try to be a little crazy and out there from time to time.

6. I recently realized that being nice and humble really doesn't accomplish much. People will say you're a good person for it but those are just words. I think I've had more people take advantage of it (not sure if it's done on purpose or not) than something good happen from it. So I'm just going to be not-so-nice and say I'm awesome.

7. I've been trying to be more open and direct because I really don't like wasting my time. But I understand that this may sometimes make me come off differently than I intend to. I don't mean to make you uncomfortable, I'm just trying to save time.

8. I'm still very black and white when it comes to people. If I decide that I don't like you, it's too late and it's hopeless for you. I don't care if you realize it late.

9. I didn't forget about blogging my ghetto car wash experience. I just need some time to get in the right mindset and mentally put myself back in that environment.

10. 이상하게 끌려. 그냥 너가 누구지 알고싶은데 너무 시간이 없는것갔다. 어짜피 모르는 사람, 좋으면 낭이고 아니면 남인데...