Self Sabotage

Here I go again...

I seem to do this repeatedly - some good event happens and I initially have a pretty good feeling about it that makes me want the event to happen again. Then I sit and over-think it to death and end up spinning it negatively in my head over and over that I eventually end up convincing myself out of the so-called good event happening again. SELF-SABOTAGE. The most frustrating part about it is that I KNOW this is happening and I still do it. ALL my friends tell me that I need to stop doing this to myself and just go with the flow of things. It's easier said than done.

Frustrating. My personality, my brain, the fact that I think too damn much for my own good. One of the main reasons I keep myself so busy is because being idle makes me think too much about things...

I'm going to try my best to break out of this. I really will.

One of Many...

I have many very attractive female friends, both on the inside AND outside.

Combine this fact with this fact: I'm single.

This situation leads many people to ask me why I don't make an effort to date any of my aforementioned attractive female friends. I constantly get asked "why don't you go for her or her or her?"

Now there are MANY reasons why I choose not to date right now and this is just one of many. It's not the biggest, just one of many reasons.

Reason: I value our friendship too much to take that chance and potentially ruin what might be a long, great friendship.

Like I always say, I'm very skeptical of love so why would I attempt something that I don't even think I can succeed in and lose a friend along the way? I'd rather we stay friends and enjoy the joys that friendship has to offer than end up like this.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Bjy_qKPTX-g

So stop asking.

배려심

Some people just really have no consideration for others. They just do as they please and do whatever they want without thinking about how their actions or inactions will affect anyone else. If you're that type of person and I come to believe this to be true about you, then it's too late for you and we'll never be friends.

One of my friends says I'm an ass, but my friend also says I'm a considerate ass. I hope this is true. Not the ass part but the considerate part. :D

남을배려할줄아는마음... 좀배워.