Random thoughts and updates for the week+, in no particular order.
1. Officially started trading for the new fund on Tuesday. It's been exhausting but I love being completely immersed in my work and my level of concentration and focus has been through the roof, if I can say so myself. But as soon as the closing bell rings, it hits me that my eyes are incredibly sore and I can physically feel the stress in the back of my neck/head.
2. As I get older, I realize that I need to go to LA often NOT to spend time with my friends, but to spend more time with MY MOM. I admit that for the most part, my trips have been more about spending time with friends and I even went many times without even telling my mom and spent entire weekends at a friend's house. My mom is the only family I have and it's scary how fast time flies. I promise to myself that I will never make "secret" trips down to LA again. And please, pardon me if I want to stay home from time to time.
3. I've never 'heard' so many "happy birthday"s in one day. I usually delete them from my wall ASAP but decided to leave them from now on. Thank you all for the posts, I appreciate every single one of them.
4. There are a lot of really good people around me and I continue to meet good, solid people. I had so much fun tailgating at the UCLA vs Cal game and found myself asking (again), "Why don't I hang out with these guys more?!"I really plan and hope to, if they let me.
5. Remember a while back, I was half-jokingly debating joining an online dating site? Well my friend told me about a free site so I worked up the courage and actually made a profile, complete with a couple pictures. I haven't really looked much because I can think of 37 better things to do with my free time but I did receive a couple unsolicited messages from seemingly normal girls and they even have all their limbs. I'll be honest, it was a nice little confidence booster but I'm not quite sure what I'm supposed to do next. O_o
6. I recently saw some friends that I haven't seen in a really long time (since elementary, high school, etc) and there's always that warm feeling you get when you see them and they seem genuinely happy to see you.
7. I was trying to schedule an MRI for my shoulder at the UCSF Sports Medicine Group and the lady helping me asks, "Will your mother or father accompany you?" Then she asks how old I am and says, "Oh my~" Hahaha, I was wearing just a hoodie and jeans but come on, lady... But thank you. ^^
8. My friends have been jokingly(?) commenting about my arms and I HONESTLY did not realize they were getting that big until I saw the pictures. But really, I think the pictures add a few pounds, right?! Either way, I will tone/slim it down. :(
9. I'm ridiculously independent and being the only child, have spent most of my life being perfectly fine doing things and being alone. But I couldn't help this thought come across my mind this past week - spent my birthday alone, went to the hospital alone to be told that I need surgery, thinking about going to get surgery alone then coming home alone... I can honestly say that this thought didn't make me sad, it really just made me smile and shake my head... at myself. :)
10. Even with #9, I feel like I'm at a pretty good place right now and feel optimistic about things to come. I was listening to this song below (yes, I know it's old) and these words jumped out at me - "when I say I'ma do something I do it... I'ma be what I set out to be... And I just can't keep living this way... so starting today, I'm breaking out of this cage... I FEEL AMAZING AND I'M NOT AFRAID." Yea, you could say my confidence level is on the high side right now.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j5-yKhDd64s&ob=av2n
